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[holly_evolving]

One more day till Craig comes home. One more day till Craig comes home. One more day till Craig comes home...

*I feel so small*

I really should get to bed, but I don't want to leave things on a rant.

Lakewood was lovely, and I'm so glad eidolon825 came with! Those of you who don't reenact have no idea what a beautiful, kind world you're missing.

Congratulations Richie and Carolina! I will get your present to you, I promise!

I'm trying to let go of MR, I really am, and mostly I'm succeeding. But every once in a while, something pops up and reminds me of those moments that didn't hurt. LARPing was like an abusive lover for me, and I'm so glad I've stopped. Still damage to heal, though. A few folks have asked me to come to this or that LARP since then, but I've said no every time, and I'm proud of myself for that. I'll stick to taking breaks from reality in places where I don't have to interact with ANY people who get off on emotionally damaging each other. "Only a few" is a few too many for me to handle.

NY Ren tomorrow. I am taking a break from garb and wearing a costume. I will be the Order Fairy to balance the Chaos Fairy. And we will be accompanied by the Chaos Egg Man, who says wonderfully kind, worthwhile things when one least expects them.

Little signs have been popping up with some regularity that seem to say "Hey, you'd be a good leader." Conversations, ideas, even stupid Memes are on the Leader Train. Great. Now who am I leading, and what am I leading them into?

It's strange to be away from him with the moon so full and bright. There's this little sheltered meadow near the house. We should be standing in it, holding each other.

One more day till Craig comes home. One more day till Craig comes home. One more day till Craig comes home...

Comments

[vampire-scion.livejournal.com]

LARPing was like an abusive lover for me, and I'm so glad I've stopped.

You just need to find the right one.

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

There is no right LARP for me any more. So many of them have gone so wrong that trying again is just painful. Dark City was a great time, but it's over. I never should have LARPED after that.

I don't have the time to commit to running my own LARP, which is the only way I could feel comfortable with the player base. I just can't do it anymore.

[vampire-scion.livejournal.com]

I'm running a LARP, just a one shot tiny LARP, as an experiment.

Bayond that, who knows?

Anyhow, if I actually come up with a system and world I like, you're most certainly invited.

[thegreyeminence.livejournal.com]

“LARPing was like an abusive lover for me, and I'm so glad I've stopped.”

You do realize that Markland is just another LARP, right? A LARP with strict character creation and costuming rules, but a LARP nonetheless. <runs away before angry Marklanders can beat him with boffers>

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

With strict what, now?

Um. I don't play a character. I'm just me. My friends are just my friends. We're just hanging out. There is no plot and no story. We are not playing out someone else's fantasies. I may be dressed funny, but they're the clothes I prefer to wear anyway.

Markland is not a LARP. LARPs allow unsupervised children.