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[holly_evolving]

I'm not an entertainer. Not really. Sometimes I sing, and sometimes I tell stories, and I'm a halfway decent pewterer. Not a real showman. But I still love being a little cog in the big machine that is faire, and I don't want to give that up. Not for anything. I love the mornings before open and the nights after close. I love knowing how it all really works and knowing these incredible people in a way that the audience never can. Yeah, sometimes I hate getting up at 7:00 am on a Saturday and sometimes the crowds get to me and sometimes I just want to fuck off and wander around. But I never want to give up belonging in this place, among these people. I used to think someday I'd want to quit. Now I know I won't ever want that. I want to be a part of this thing. I have my little piece of the world, I have my little spot where I belong. I make sense there and that's a powerful thing.

I'm keeping it.