Update attempt

[holly_evolving]

So, I haven't been posting. I no longer have time at work since I took over proofreading orders. I've learned some things:

~Debbie (for whom I'm covering) used to spend a lot of time reading. This is why she never had time to get work done.
~I'm surrounded by people who are paid to waste time. If I am remotely nice to them, I accomplish nothing.
~The bosses are treating me like a princess. Thus, I assume that my coworkers are waiting for me to fuck up, at which point they will tear me apart like a tired dog in a circle fight. This is a good way to keep from fucking up.
~Karen is a wonderful lady. She is so getting a Vermont Teddy Bear.

My godmother sent me $500.00. This will help much with bills and rent. Yes, I pay rent to my mother. When she knows why my money was gone. And her boyfriend does not pay rent.

Craig is amazing. While he becomes more familiar to me with each new thing I learn, I'm still amazed each time I see him as though it's the first. He is my comfort and my joy; he is the reason I'm finally learning nothing can touch me if I don't want it to.

And I am. I freaked after a fight with my mother one morning. Turns out, I just needed a woman to be nice to me. And one was. Thank you, dragonchylde. My heart needs so little that sometimes I forget to take anything at all.

Magic is having motivation to do something other than sleep/work/see Craig.


I loved being off the pill, but now I want back on. My weight rockets 10 pounds or so over the course of each day. I wake up 147 and go to sleep 157. This is not normal gain for me. I fluxed only 3-4 pounds while on the pill. And it feels pretty awful. Plus, the week before my period I've begun developping false pregnancies: retaining water, swollen breasts and belly, intense mood swings, acne, indigestion bordering on nausea. All these things vanish a few hours before menstruation starts. This is a condition of the past two months...just as my body adjusted to no Ortho-tricyclen. Oh yeah--I went on it to deal with my horrible, horrible periods. I'll be able to afford medical care again soon, thank the gods.


Bought a new copy of Order of the Phoenix after accepting that I'll never see the original again.

Consider yourselves updated.

Platypus

Comments

[emperor-of-ick.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the update was wondering how things were going. Your getting smart in your young age woman take the joy and learning and go with it. if your lucky it will never stop and you will be continually amazed i know I am daily by my love.

Ps didn't read the cut thingy...lol

[silentorpheus.livejournal.com]

Glad the job is better. was beginning to wonder if they had locked you away there, in some closet away from your computer, and forced you to work intolerable hours doing truly trivial labor. :-)