DO NOT WANT

[holly_evolving]

Colposcopy set for January 7. Why couldn't they wait to tell me till the new year? Now I'm going to have this hanging over my head and be on the verge of a panic attack through Xmas. Maybe there's something more permanent they could do. It's not like I'm going to have kids.

Going to see Jason's family tonight. Got up early so I could shower and be all pretty.

Man, I did not need this right now.

Comments

[alphafemale1.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...first off, hugs and love.

Secondly, I'm big believer in Scarlett O'Hara sensibility "But I can't worry about that now. I'll worry about that tomorrow!". Since you can't change it right now, don't even let it interfere with your Christmas.

And call me if you need to vent- I'll be in NC with the in-laws, and will welcome a distraction. :)

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

I'm trying. It's just hard...the first time I had this done, the RN was a ham-fisted butcher, and it was the worst pain of my life. Dr. Tjoa is leaps and bounds better than that, but I still feel that anxiety...anticipating the pain. I wish I could just get it over with now.

[alphafemale1.livejournal.com]

I understand. But don't beat yourself up- let Jay and your family and friends lend you strength. You are a superwoman- but you don't have to do it alone. :)

[polyemtgirl.livejournal.com]

I know its drastic, but have you talked to them about a histo?

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

I'm hoping I can start with a LEEP and go from there.