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Oct. 24th, 2006 01:19 amWell, my brother wants $400 a month if I'm going to stay with him. I can keep my stuff there for free, though.
So yes, Erin, I will be at Dunkin tomorrow night around 10:30.
Renting a U-Haul probably is the best thing. I just have to figure out when. I work Fridays and Saturdays.
I spoke to an attorney today. They're sending a formal letter, just to put it in writing that as long as Carol doesn't touch my things, no action will be taken. But if she does, it will. That way, we all know the rules. I called Craig and told him and of course he was angry. I could hear it. But I don't trust her. If he had understood my side, I'd know that the letter was just a formality. But he didn't, so I know I need it.
No one wants to remember what I feel like--I don't blame them. Everyone's been here, or will be here, at some point. But if it's not happening to you, right now, you don't remember. I had him, it, the thing, the one, the love of my life. And I lost it all in this one horrible moment. I did everything I could think of and nothing worked. He's gone. Anywhere I go now, he won't be there. And if I do see him, he won't hold me and kiss me. I keep feeling like I'm going to wake up but I won't. He won't tell me it's all been a terrible mistake.
And yes I KNOW it will get better and I'll move on and everything will be all right again someday. But right now it's just NOT and nothing anyone says can do what I really need which is just to make this pain stop. No one can do that for me.
I feel dead. And every night, when I try to sleep, he's not there beside me. I miss him snoring and rolling over on me.
This just hurts so much.
So yes, Erin, I will be at Dunkin tomorrow night around 10:30.
Renting a U-Haul probably is the best thing. I just have to figure out when. I work Fridays and Saturdays.
I spoke to an attorney today. They're sending a formal letter, just to put it in writing that as long as Carol doesn't touch my things, no action will be taken. But if she does, it will. That way, we all know the rules. I called Craig and told him and of course he was angry. I could hear it. But I don't trust her. If he had understood my side, I'd know that the letter was just a formality. But he didn't, so I know I need it.
No one wants to remember what I feel like--I don't blame them. Everyone's been here, or will be here, at some point. But if it's not happening to you, right now, you don't remember. I had him, it, the thing, the one, the love of my life. And I lost it all in this one horrible moment. I did everything I could think of and nothing worked. He's gone. Anywhere I go now, he won't be there. And if I do see him, he won't hold me and kiss me. I keep feeling like I'm going to wake up but I won't. He won't tell me it's all been a terrible mistake.
And yes I KNOW it will get better and I'll move on and everything will be all right again someday. But right now it's just NOT and nothing anyone says can do what I really need which is just to make this pain stop. No one can do that for me.
I feel dead. And every night, when I try to sleep, he's not there beside me. I miss him snoring and rolling over on me.
This just hurts so much.