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holly_evolvingMoved. In a house where I sleep in a bed in a bedroom with windows. Last night we had dinner together at the kitchen table, and then we watched History channel while sitting by the fire in the fireplace and eating ice cream.
So that is the best present of the year.
On the other hand, I'm currently buzzed. Alone. On Xmas eve. After drinking in a bar. Alone. On Xmas eve. And I want him back right now. In the morning I'll feel better, but this alone shit has got to stop for the better to stick. I fucking hate that part of my life. Everything else is getting better, but it's like forgetting there's a nail sticking up from the floor. I keep stepping on it, but I can't get it out.
My niece was really cute tonight. I went to church. No, I'm not Christian. Never was, never will be. It was weird. Things seem so pretentious since I grew up. Spent the car ride to church explaining to her that yes she would see her daddy on Xmas. I think that's what started with the depression and the drinking.
Fuck.
Look, you’re standing alone
However I should have known
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
In your world, you’re alone in your face
You’re alone in your world
You’re alone in your face
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
Now you’re just walking away
When you said you always would stay
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
In your world, you’re alone in your face
Your alone in your world
Your alone in your face
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
In your world, you’re alone in your place
You’re alone in your world
You’re alone in your place
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
Alone
So that is the best present of the year.
On the other hand, I'm currently buzzed. Alone. On Xmas eve. After drinking in a bar. Alone. On Xmas eve. And I want him back right now. In the morning I'll feel better, but this alone shit has got to stop for the better to stick. I fucking hate that part of my life. Everything else is getting better, but it's like forgetting there's a nail sticking up from the floor. I keep stepping on it, but I can't get it out.
My niece was really cute tonight. I went to church. No, I'm not Christian. Never was, never will be. It was weird. Things seem so pretentious since I grew up. Spent the car ride to church explaining to her that yes she would see her daddy on Xmas. I think that's what started with the depression and the drinking.
Fuck.
Look, you’re standing alone
However I should have known
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
In your world, you’re alone in your face
You’re alone in your world
You’re alone in your face
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
Now you’re just walking away
When you said you always would stay
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
In your world, you’re alone in your face
Your alone in your world
Your alone in your face
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
Never before, never again
You will ignore, I will pretend
In your world, you’re alone in your place
You’re alone in your world
You’re alone in your place
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
How, you said you never would leave me alone, how
How, you said you never would leave me alone
Alone
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Date: 2006-12-25 07:56 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-12-26 05:48 am (UTC)"Everyone agrees that no one should be left alone
Cause everyone agrees that they should not be left alone"
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