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[holly_evolving]

So, I've been feeling a lot better. The weight of getting my stuff out of his home is gone, and that provided instant relief.

This is not to say that I'm over him. I love him with all my heart. I may never love someone the way I love him. I may never get over him. But that's sort of ok with me now. I wish I could go back and keep things the way they were for the first few months, but now I can see all the things that went wrong, and I don't know that I could do anything to stop them.

Most of the time, I'm pretty good. I still have bouts of melancholy, but they're not nearly as severe. And they only come if I haven't eaten or slept well. Which is a tough juggle. I've lost 16 pounds since the breakup, and I want to keep going.

Going out dancing seems to be the workout for me. And now I get to do it. A lot.

Fatso's was AWESOME. And so was Axis Lounge on Friday night.

Comments

[r-u-b.livejournal.com]

glad you are having fun! i'm sorry about last night hope you enjoyed that band. i started the day off strong and finally right before i started to get ready i had two set backs that wound up stealing all my thunder and never made it out. but thats alright because it has been a seriously long time since i have took one full day and just did my own thing and didn't push myself. so it was a well neaded mental break. kinda one of those things that now that i did it i appreciated why i go out ever chance i get.

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

You've been a huge part of my having fun--it's been awesome and I hope it keeps going. Don't worry about the band from Saturday; it was an odd kind of show. I don't think I'll be going back to Cryan's. Call me when you get the chance--we should hang out again soon.