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Nov. 13th, 2006 02:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
holly_evolvingSo, I've been feeling a lot better. The weight of getting my stuff out of his home is gone, and that provided instant relief.
This is not to say that I'm over him. I love him with all my heart. I may never love someone the way I love him. I may never get over him. But that's sort of ok with me now. I wish I could go back and keep things the way they were for the first few months, but now I can see all the things that went wrong, and I don't know that I could do anything to stop them.
Most of the time, I'm pretty good. I still have bouts of melancholy, but they're not nearly as severe. And they only come if I haven't eaten or slept well. Which is a tough juggle. I've lost 16 pounds since the breakup, and I want to keep going.
Going out dancing seems to be the workout for me. And now I get to do it. A lot.
Fatso's was AWESOME. And so was Axis Lounge on Friday night.
This is not to say that I'm over him. I love him with all my heart. I may never love someone the way I love him. I may never get over him. But that's sort of ok with me now. I wish I could go back and keep things the way they were for the first few months, but now I can see all the things that went wrong, and I don't know that I could do anything to stop them.
Most of the time, I'm pretty good. I still have bouts of melancholy, but they're not nearly as severe. And they only come if I haven't eaten or slept well. Which is a tough juggle. I've lost 16 pounds since the breakup, and I want to keep going.
Going out dancing seems to be the workout for me. And now I get to do it. A lot.
Fatso's was AWESOME. And so was Axis Lounge on Friday night.
