Enough Already

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This is a public address over something that should not need to be handled in the public domain. I said something that was blown out of proportion and repeated. I vented. To Will and Julie, and separately to Paulie, people who I've known for six and eight years, I got out the last of my frustration over Marc and Amber. This is what I said: she's an art student. Which is true. She's 20. Which is true. And she weighs more than me. Which is mean, but true. Marc has to drive a lot to see her. Which is true. I'm not perfect. I was upset. I was dealing with something sudden and, at the time, hurtful. Amber is also beautiful, talented, intelligent, and better than me at everything. My apologies for not mentioning her good points when I was upset. I'm human. Shit happens. The truth is, I've dealt with it. I'm over it. It's possible to mistake gratitude and need for love, which is what I did in the case of Marc. When I was at the end of my rope, he was there for me. I didn't know what to do when my situation changed. So I vented. Twice. I have no idea how much what I said was stretched, but I was told tonight that I said Amber would drain Marc dry. I never said that! Considering the people who were involved in this little rumor mess, I'm pissed that anyone did. I like Amber. I would like to be her friend. Sometimes, people are unhappy with situations and they vent about people they like. And they vent about their friends. And then they're over it and it's done. This all went down a week and a half ago. If it was so major, why didn't it come to light before now?
I owe Amber and Marc an apology for this mess. And they'll each get a real one. But here, in front of everyone who feels the need to talk about it, I'm sorry. And to whoever dragged Fred and gods know how many other people into a simple misunderstanding: you owe me an apology.

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