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[holly_evolving]

Last night, my brother and I went up to Vernon to get my dad's stuff out of my Aunt Linda's house. Today, therefore, will involve as much housework as I can get done, a few bouts of crying hysterically, and possibly throwing up. I have already made several inroads on the former two. Not because I miss him (haven't gotten there yet), but because I'm the only one who knows just how crazy he was.

Add-on:

Dear Everybody,

I have a lot of problems of the crazy-making variety. I hope I haven't gotten them on any of you. I'm trying to get better.

Me

Comments

[ariestar.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry :(

Also, I've dealt with my "situation", so I'm back reading. Because that's SOOOO important to you.

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

Oh, but it is.

I'm really bad at funny sarcasm. But I like you. You don't suck.

[vampire-scion.livejournal.com]

Sometimes, there are people in our lives who are damaged on a deep, profound level. And, often times without realizing it, they pass that damage on to the people they're supposed to love and care for. Those people are impressionable, likely because they are young and they are open and they love these damaged people back. And that kind of relationship ultimately has an effect, and those people kind of grow up damaged too.

I'm the child of someone who is hurt on a deep, profound level. Thusly, I also have problems of the crazy-making variety. I have problems in my life. By acknowledging and confronting my problems, I take a steps to resolve them. To ignore them would be to repeat the mistakes of my past.

You have friends. Undoubtedly, you have some kind of support system. People who you can talk to. People whom you love. People who love you. People who you confide and trust in. Let them be there for you. I know, in my life, I thought I was alone, stranded, and had no one to who I could turn.

It's good that you cry, and feel something, anything. Don't bottle it up inside. Try to express your feelings in some way, even if you don't plan on sharing them with anyone. It's cathartic. I know you probally know this. I know you probally do express yourself. But keep at it, and don't stop feeling. Many times in my life I stopped feeling, and it didn't help. The times I prospered most was when I used my emotion, even my negative emotions, constructively.

You're a strong person. A smart person. A person who is beautiful inside and out. I admire your openess, your resolve, and your spirit. And yes, people drive each other a little bonkers every now and then. I probally, at one point or another, made you a little nuts. And I understand if, for some reason, you've made me a little nuts.

I understand things happen. We all have bad days and good days. We weather the bad together so we can appreciate the good.

That said...

Take care, and be as well as you can be.

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

You're a lot smarter than you realize. Thanks.

*hug*