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[holly_evolving]

So I'm in Hawthorne. It's late and there's a thunderstorm outside my window. It has been a very strange time. I'm getting ready to live with my mom again, and to start my new job next Monday. I have more than a few misgivings about living here again, as she and I often do not see eye to eye. Even though she has been through (far worse than) what I'm going through now, I still feel her disapproval of me and most of what I am: libertarian, pagan, bisexual, a gamer, a night owl.
It's beginning to wear on certain of my friends that I have, for the past couple of weeks, lost my interest in sex. They're being good sports about it, but I can tell.
I'm coming to terms with some people I thought were my friends turning on me. It's taken a long time to get as far as I have, and I still have much further to go before I can handle it. I used to wish that I could patch everything up. I've progressed to the point that I just feel I'm being denied my right to know what the fuck I did that was so awful, and being angry at this silent treatment. Hopefully apathy will come soon, because this right here is what's making it hard for me to enjoy Mystic Realms.
Speaking of, I've been on the fence as to whether or not I would attend the upcoming event Memorial Day weekend. Well, now it's a definite no. cosmic_hiccup's school is doing a cancer benefit, and as someone at risk, it would be karmically unwise for me to blow it off. Plus, it's something I have strong feelings about, and it will make Rebecca happy.
The good news: had a lot of fun just hanging out with people. Working backwards:
I was in the diner tonight with Kraig, getting to know each other (again, we do this every 3 years or so) when I run into Jacqi, who I've been trying to find a way to get ahold of for a few months now. We catch up, and she's awesome, and once I move back here for real we're going to hang out. Earlier (before the storm hit) I was at good old D&D catching up with Blake and Kat, and visiting with Travis. This afternoon I went on a hunt for elbow pads and the Gerald with Eric. We were unsuccessful on both counts, but we still had fun. Last night I introduced Eric to Phish Phood ice cream. Yesterday afternoon I was at the MR Fantasy Faire, and I took a bunch of excellent photos. I also took a bunch of fun photos of Rebecca's birthday party Saturday afternoon. Friday night I saw Van Helsing with nicodemus_ace, and we hung out at the Crystal afterwards till 2 AM. Thursday was sushi with wolf_nd_shadows, which was wonderful as usual (what a wonderful person he is). Zach: if you're reading this, you're a monkey. I'm fuzzy on what happened when before then. I know I saw Eric, and I saw Marc on Monday...beyond that, it's been too damn busy to be sure.
I sincerely hope that I'm not blamed for any mischief caused at the Faire, but I'm fairly certain that one of the observing parties (and therefore NOT one of the involved/aggrieved parties) will find a way. Observers are like that.
May 17th is Heather Feather's birthday. What a perfect little person she is.
May 22/23 is the West Windsor Rennaissance Faire at Mercer County Park is West Windsor, NJ (sponsored by the West Windsor Lions Club) and all of you who are able to make it should bloody well go, as it will be wonderful.
I'm in a better mood for the moment, but my moods are becoming unreliable again. So I'll do my best to enjoy this while it lasts. Y'all should do the same (for the majority of you who actually WANT me to be in a good mood. For the rest of you, fuck yourselves, as per usual.)

Platypus

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Hey Beautiful girl:

[sororbabylon.livejournal.com]

Ride the crest of each wave with gusto, like you always do. No matter what wanes or ebbs, you'll always find yourself on firm footing.

I can never thank you enough for the impact you had on my life in one short evening. You saved a friendship - that's more then I could even begin to know how to thank you for.

And, foxy little nymph that you are, even if you have no interest in sex, I know two people who always want to see you.

love.
Cat

xoxo

Re: Hey Beautiful girl:

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

Free time is coming, worry not! What do I call an apprentice Santera, anyway?

xoxox

[cosmic-hiccup.livejournal.com]

So that's where you've been the past two days. You are the coolest girl ever for going to my concert! (and bringing your friends?)

[juliekarasik.livejournal.com]

Dear *god* sweetie - how many people are you hanging around with that sex with/about/near you is such a binding glue to the friendship that the lack/disinterest is something they have to be "good sports" about?!

Friends with sprinkles is great, but if you take away the sprinkles and are left wondering what all is left, exactly how good is the *friendship*?

::Off into the thunderstorm to retrieve my laundry.... bleah::

[holly-evolving.livejournal.com]

Not as many as it would seem. Part of the lack of interest in sex is the desire to see my life without it. And it's as full and good as it was before. Sure, there are crappy people who have no interest in me if I have no interest in sex, but they are no longer factors in my life. By good sports, I meant that a couple of them had been cut off literally all of a sudden. And they were totally cool about it. Which, when you consider it, isn't all that common.

[juliekarasik.livejournal.com]

Allright.... it just sounded like there were folks out there who needed a smack upside the head. (Which I'm pretty good at when my dander's up)