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Well, it turns out that the pain I've been constantly in isn't all in my head. I went to a chiropractor, and the nerve scan he did (which my mom knows the name for, but I forget) showed that my entire back is very, very wrong. Hey, maybe all the illness has been from my spinal column being fucked up. None of the other leads panned out. And maybe the depression comes from a lifetime of physical pain--that would suck the energy out of anyone, I think.

I called out of work today. Maybe I can get Monday's X-rays bumped up to today. But first I have to see if I can get an appointment with my GP.

The thing that really sucks about sitting around on my ass, to ill to go to work, is that it's really lonely and I'm not making any money.

Your SAT Score of 1390 Means:

You Scored Higher Than Howard Stern You Scored Higher Than George W. Bush You Scored Higher Than Al Gore You Scored Higher Than David Duchovny You Scored Lower Than Natalie Portman You Scored Lower Than Bill Gates Your IQ is most likely in the 130-140 range Equivalent ACT score: 31 Schools that Fit Your SAT Score: Brown University Northwestern University Carnegie Mellon University Cornell University Reed College

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My Personality

Neuroticism	58
Extraversion	62
Openness To Experience	77
Agreeableness	56
Conscientiousness	56

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Sometimes I want to call my dad and talk. About how I feel, and what's going on at my job, and how things are with Craig. But I can't. And I can't tell him that I'm sorry I wasn't there while he was awake in his bed, and that I wish he'd gone to the doctor sooner. I want to tell him I'm sorry that I thought he was a hypochondriac. I want to tell him I love him. I want to sing with him. I wanted him to walk me down the aisle--if I ever do get married. I want him in my life. It's been over a year and I still can't cope.

I want my daddy.