Jun. 24th, 2010 12:13 pm
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Things I did last night:

Helped Jay with his laundry. Made and ate Russian eggs benny (Jay did the eggs, so it was a cooperative effort). Now I'm out of capers and caviar and will have to find new. Set up my edibles on the deck, while Flap lounged next to me. He's liking his little safe patch of outside. Played WoW.

Tonight: 2 kinds of tortelloni (yes, oni not ini), spinach/herb and artichoke, with goat cheese pesto (I'm out of parmesan and not shopping again this week. This is how discoveries happen.) Playing more WoW. Meeting [ profile] cullyn above Achindoun to smash some pixels together.
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So. The wedding is officially booked. That's all the news I've got.

Dinner tonight: Russian eggs benedict. English muffin, egg over-easy, smoked salmon, sour cream, capers, black caviar. Frigging delicious. Dessert: this giant walnut-raisin-muffin thing I got at work today and have managed not to touch.

I picked up a couple of edibles kits to grow on my balcony: mini strawberries and a salsa garden (cherry tomatos, cilantro, chiles). Planting them tonight, and picking up flowerboxes soon for transplanting.

WoW is running its Midsummer festival, so I'm racking up some achievments and exp on my main.

That's about it.


Oct. 6th, 2009 04:39 pm
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Bored at work. Out of here in 20 minutes. My back seriously needs work. My last free days in October are being snapped up in a hurry. And I have groceries to buy. Huh, how normal.
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1) boyfriend. Still with Jay. It's awesome.
2) family. Sometimes their political views confuse me, but they are an awesome family and we have lots of fun and I love them, so it evens out.
3) friends. I've been hermit-ish lately. I need to work on that.
4) kitty. Registering him with the town. His health seems good, although he's down a pound to 11 since we moved. Will be asking the vet for advice when I pick up his special food this Saturday.
5) apartment. The landlord has been having trouble getting the contractors to do the work on the new apartment up to standard, so we haven't moved into it yet. It's supposed to happen at the end of this month now. Frustrating, since I can't unpack my stuff. Also, what is wrong with contractors? This has been since June.
6) job. Working for the SSAT Board - - as someone who is not a fan at all of the way the current private school system functions, it's a weird job for me. But I get to treat private school parents like they're not special, so that's nice.* A couple of my coworkers have some religious and philosophical views that I find...well, frankly insane, but they're all really nice and we still have plenty of good conversations when we're not busy on the phones.
7) health. I'm doing research on private health insurance. I'm pretty sure that I can afford it while I'm on this temp assignment, but it's what happens after this job ends in February that has me worried. It takes 3-6 weeks on average to find me a new job, and unemployment pays less than half of what I earned. I'll have to see what kind of savings I can build up.
8) money. I have no bad debt, and $1200 left on my student loan. So this insurance thing is possible.
9) politics. On, I graph as -7.8, -3.5. I'm pro public funding (within reason), pro choice, AND pro death penalty. Hi, I'm weird.
10) WoW (that's World of Warcraft, relatives!). My night elf druid hit level 60, and I made a death knight. I love this game.

*My issue is multi-faceted. Why do private schools that receive tuition from parents also receive any government funding? This takes funding away from public and special-needs schools. Also, and this is one problem that I can't fathom a way out of, private schools existing contributes to the deterioration of public schools. Think about it: if parents counldn't remove their kids from the public system, they'd be more willing to approve tax increases that go to the funding of public schools. There are flaws there, but the argument is basically sound. Problem is, some public schools have gotten so bad from lack of funding that parents would riot if they had to send their kids there now. What do you do?

***Kevin makes a really good point about this in the comments. Read before you reply!***

Brain Dump

Aug. 14th, 2009 09:51 am
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So what would YOU put on a T shirt?

I've been borrowing Jay's car for the past couple of days while he carpools with a coworker who lives in our complex. I had to get my brakes done: front & rear brakes & rotors, and rear calipers. And yet, it's the cheapest brake job I've ever had done. I question the honesty of north Jersey mechanics.

So, I've been reading lately, and beyond making me want to learn to knit, it's made me want to figure out how I became such an angry person. I carry it around with me and it gets in the way sometimes. And of course it's not just one event, it's lots of them, and bad timing, and people hurting my feelings and breaking my trust. But one thing among them is standing out at the moment, so I thought I might get it out.

Marc H. )

BUT! I'm taking Heather to the Faire tomorrow! So you know that means pictures. AND I caught up on paying down my student loan this morning.

This song always makes me nostalgic for the nomad days:

We spotted the ocean at the head of the trail
Where are we going, so far away
And somebody told me that this is the place
Where everything's better, everything's safe
Walk on the ocean
Step on the stones
Flesh becomes water
Wood becomes bone
And half and hour later we packed up our things
We said we'd send letters and all those little things
And they knew we were lying but they smiled just the same
It seemed they'd already forgotten we'd came

Now we're back at the homestead
Where the air makes you choke
And people don't know you
And trust is a joke
We don't even have pictures
Just memories to hold
That grow sweeter each season
As we slowly grow old

"Walk On the Ocean"--Toad the Wet Sprocket
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Work has been killing my brain. I've been playing a lot of WOW so I don't dream that I'm still at work, and reading, and going to the gym. Disconnecting for a while has been really peaceful, and I feel more content with my life. But I'm ready to get back into it now, and I'm taking my niece to the NY Ren Faire this weekend.

In reverse

Jul. 21st, 2009 10:00 am
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I was sick yesterday with the heartburn that ate Tokyo, and I figured continuing the sleep deprivation of the last few weeks would only make it worse, so I stayed home and slept till 2:30 or so. Then I got the Burning Crusade (finally), so should I want to, I can make a Drannei. I soloed King Mukla in Booty Bay and made level 43, then decided my headache was bad enough and signed out. I really need new glasses. Spent the evening snuggled with Jay and watching Burn Notice, then took some Benadryl and went to bed early.

I'm currently reading The King's Grace, because everyone who reads Elizabethan fiction eventually moves on to Henrician.

Rewind to Sunday:
Breakfast with Jay and Melissa at the country diner. Maybe I shouldn't have had the potato pancakes? But they were so good!
Jay and I returned [ profile] fatherdog's car to his house, then drove up to Waldwick for the mass family birthday party. Thanks to turnpike traffic, I missed my mom's cousin OC (Owen Charles). Still had a nice time with the family, and Jay cut through all the Dell bs to get my aunt's internet and wireless printer up and running. I cook, he networks. We are useful couple!
We stopped by Wanaque to pick up some more stuff from the apartment, but it was 8 PM and I was exhausted, so we didn't get as much as we could have. Picked up my lil coffee pot, though. Now I just have to get some white vinegar to clean it.
Also, Sunday was my birthday. I am officially 29 and proud of it. Thank you everyone who wished me a happy. Got a couple of nice lil prezzies, but more importantly, people kind of made a fuss about me. I like fusses when they're happy.

Got up around 10 to drive out to Clinton for an 11:30 oil change...which the owner never bothered to inform his mechanics that he had scheduled, so let me tell you, they were THRILLED to see me 30 minutes before close. But, it got done. Then we went over to WalMart and got a couple of camp chairs, and stopped for sushi lunch before going home to shower and play video games.
Melissa came by around 4 and we hung out till Dave showed up around 6, and then we went to Ewing for a Bear Tavern party & BBQ. It was madness on par with the usual. Objects of interest were a cute baby, a broken rusty trampoline, a pair of agitated mini schnauzers, a moth, cookies, Dancing Bill, and a pile of cushions on the floor. I laughed till I hurt, which in retrospect may have contributed to the evil, evil heartburn, but fsck it. Also, if you own hentai and get married, your spouse now also owns hentai and needs to accept that. Photos/video if I get them.
Got to see Aaron before he moved away to Seattle, so that was bittersweet.
[ profile] fatherdog got drunker than I've seen him since college, so after putting some water in him, we decided to drive him home and call it a night.

Went to the Red Rooster Grill in Flemington with Jay and had a lovely fancy-pants dinner. The place is Zagat rated Excellent. Om nom a nom nom. Then we went to see Potter. I understand why the detractors don't like it, but honestly I was perfectly satisfied. There is also already some good fan-parody out about it. It is kinda weird how ripped Rupert Grint is. His biceps are as big as my head.

Tonight's plan is to visit with Travis and Kelly for a bit, and give Kelly some of Flap's extra things that Jay and I don't need anymore now that the kitty has only one home.
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*begin nutshell*
Leafstone called me today. They want my updated resume, and they may have a receptionist gig in the works for me till I move. I'm not getting my hopes up, since they haven't yet performed for me at all, but hey. Any help is good. Meanwhile, I'm working on samples for my brother's business.

So I think I'm going to make eggs Benedict tomorrow. Have I ever made Hollandaise sauce? Why no, no I haven't. Nor have I separated an egg since the fifth grade. Let's see if it's like riding a bike for me.

Weight it dropping slowly, a few ounces a day overall. Good thing I like step aerobics.

Jay bought me new sneakers. He's so awesome.
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I'm hosting Mother's Day. It's not a huge amount of work to get the place cleaned up and get the food made; I just have to be here to DO IT. I'm not sure what exactly she said that made me go, "I'll do it!" but there must have been something...

Got my tax refund. Once I deposit that mofo, I can get caught up on some things.

The world does not suck.
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I am clean and dressed. My bed is made. I have cleaned the toilet. As seen below, I have completed a photo and video update. I have eaten breakfast and taken my vitamins. I have read through Google News.
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Also added two adorable videos of Mudflap attacking my feet.

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So, I explained to Jay last night that I'm scared of moving in with him. It goes like this: once upon a time, I loved Craig and trusted him very much. Then, without warning, he dumped me and threw me out and I was homeless. Luckily for me, [ profile] polyemtgirl and her man are very good people and they took me in. Still, it was incredibly traumatic for me, and it really rocked my faith in myself.

So now I've been with Jay for a year and a half, and I'm moving down here in July. Possibly sooner. And I love Jay and I trust him, and I don't forsee any problems. Just like before. I definitely WANT to move in with him, but this fear is real and I think only time will lessen it.

Jay is very understanding of this and all my other neuroses, and I'm really grateful for that.

I think I surprised him in that I understand that he is having some anxiety about it, too. For a little while now, he's lived on his own and done what he wanted with his home, and he didn't have to accommodate anyone. But before that, he had to build his life around what someone else wanted. I can imagine it must be very hard to have to go back to that, especially when the first time around ended badly.

I'm glad we're getting a two-bedroom place with an office. That way there's a room that's just his, and a room that's just mine, within a home that we have together. I think that's the best plan.

So that's where I'm at right now.
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1) I have a job interview on Tuesday!

2) I got a free upgrade for my phone. I now have my first ever camera phone.
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I need to get two jobs this year: one for until July, and one from July onward. I'm moving to Flemington in July, hence the switch. I'm already working on losing weight and getting myself and my cat healthy. I'm already making important repairs on my car. I already know I want to get to a therapist and work on my issues; that's just a matter of health benefits.

So I don't need to resolve to change my life. My life is changing whether or not I'm ready for it.
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I'm thinking of all the issues I need to go over with a therapist. Anxiety, depression, bad conditioning...things I can recognize, but can't seem to overcome by myself. I have the support of my friends, family, and incredible boyfriend to help me get through these things, but what I really want is to overcome them. I think regaining my confidence is key, but I can't think how to do that. Remember confident me? I do. I remember what life was like when I didn't stop to wonder if people wanted to hear me sing, I just sang because I wanted to. I remember not being afraid to talk to people. And I remember not being afraid to be alone.

See, that's the worst part, the part I really hate. I cannot, cannot feel secure in the idea that no, everyone in my life will not just up and leave me one day, no matter how hard I try to be extra good, and no matter how much that fear drives me to BE extra good. It is a self-repairing issue, though. I want to stop with the crazy so I don't drive people away, so as as soon as I can afford it I'm going to hunt down a therapist I can work with, deal with the crazy, and overcome this fear.

I really need to recondition myself so that happiness and anxiety are no longer in direct correlation...that is to say that right now, the happier I am, the more afraid I am of losing that happiness. It's a toxic mindset, and it's been the force behind my self-sabotage for a few years now.

I will not let this conquer me. I can see it now, and take steps to stop the chain reaction before it begins. That will do until I can do more. And I will correct this. It's only a matter of time.
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Picked up an 8-gig memory stick for the camera today...3744 pictures. Yum. A new era in my digital life is dawning, and it will be very pretty. And probably have lots of pictures of Mudflap.

Also got a bucket o cookies from mom today. Double yum. Not to be confused with Bubble Yum.

Hey, does anyone else miss grape Bubble Tape? I probably wouldn't like it now, but the memories are good.

Jason picked up a new refillable CO2-based airspray cleaner. The cartridges are very pretty; they look like rainbow copper bullets.
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But it's not over. Two more weeks. So very, very tired. I would very much like a day off where I don't actually have to DO anything.
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Definitely feeling appreciated now.

Also, got all my Xmas shopping done except for the wrappings, and shipping some stuff to my godmother.

Going to QXT tonight. Not as big a crew as was expected, but what can you do? Dancing is how I work out. At this point, if I had to, I'd go alone.

Cooked a bunch today.

Quiet, comfy Saturday.


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